and so on...

Quite has happened since i last decided to share my life oh
n this useless piece of internet space.

as of now , i am officially

-[once i visit all the places and pick] am moving in with meghynn
-registering for concordia in january
-detoxing completely for the following:
-getting a breast reduction.

the roomate wasnt too pleased with an aspect of my entourage and lifestyle so i was kindly asked to pack my bags , which will lead to better things i hope.

detox will suck.
if youre looking for me , i'll be at home chewing on sugar free candy and trying to keep myself busy.

pascale comes back in a week. fuck yes.

attempt number 2

at going out; failed miserably.


i should have known drinking at 3PM on adderral is just bad news.

hurray for:

a good chance of a high paying job meaning : precription pill relapse, clothes , clothes, clothes....

finally my father and i are going to my school to pay the tuition.

Im thinking of moving to toronto for a couple of months til the summer after that. Just for fucks and because everyone is ending up there anyways.

Ive also never lived in another city and before i make a big step in another fucking country i think its a good way to practice learning how to get around somewhere else.

&it's close to home.

Alissa might be going to russia for the summer so there goes all my future plans of collaborated art with her. oh and my little party partner.

On a better note ,Michelle comes back tomorrow.

ahem

life is pretty hectic up and down; as of lately.

i havent seen anyone but alissa for the past week and a half, omitting random encounters out and about.

in fact it all just seems like a surreal blur.
there were barely any moments of sobriety or sense.

i dont remember faces or memories just anxiety or greed.


i need to figure shit out.

spiderman spiderman radioactive best day ever spiderman

this life's lesson

i am only looking out for myself now. concetrating on the following things:

- shopping
-losing weight/getting my breast reduction
-school
-making a million dollars
-getting my art back on
-making new superficial friends that i can use and who dont care about me
-discovering new music
-reading





ps. obviously the only human being that is exempt from my current hate for humanity is michelle. after further suspiscion i am debating if she is an alien a figment of my imagination.

meow meow

So my dad accepted to pay for school finally.
He trusts i will probably get bored of it after a week , drop out and waste his money again.

I know there's a gleam of hope i will go through with all of this.
I owe him that much.

I lost my brand new ipod yesterday.
It was like losing a child my heart stopped for a second before i burst into tears on the street.

& Michelle without hesitation said "take mine".

People like her shouldnt be allowed to exist this shitty excuse for humanity doesnt deserve them.

Now i cant sleep at night trying to think up an amazing way to tell her i love her and pay her back.

Maybe get a tattoo of her name ..................or maybe not.

2 questions:

1)WHY IS QUEEN LATIFAH SO SUCCESSFUL NOW?

2)who was the best buy employee talking about when he said YOURE SO RETARDED...me? shawn? me and shawn? someone else?

my lessons of the day :

1)everyone should smoke weed before going to best buy
2)cars cant turn left in this fucking city
3)when someone gets out of their car to come break shawn's fingers , we can just turn the window up and pretend he doesnt exist.