ahem

life is pretty hectic up and down; as of lately.

i havent seen anyone but alissa for the past week and a half, omitting random encounters out and about.

in fact it all just seems like a surreal blur.
there were barely any moments of sobriety or sense.

i dont remember faces or memories just anxiety or greed.


i need to figure shit out.

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this life's lesson

i am only looking out for myself now. concetrating on the following things:

- shopping
-losing weight/getting my breast reduction
-school
-making a million dollars
-getting my art back on
-making new superficial friends that i can use and who dont care about me
-discovering new music
-reading





ps. obviously the only human being that is exempt from my current hate for humanity is michelle. after further suspiscion i am debating if she is an alien a figment of my imagination.

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So my dad accepted to pay for school finally.
He trusts i will probably get bored of it after a week , drop out and waste his money again.

I know there's a gleam of hope i will go through with all of this.
I owe him that much.

I lost my brand new ipod yesterday.
It was like losing a child my heart stopped for a second before i burst into tears on the street.

& Michelle without hesitation said "take mine".

People like her shouldnt be allowed to exist this shitty excuse for humanity doesnt deserve them.

Now i cant sleep at night trying to think up an amazing way to tell her i love her and pay her back.

Maybe get a tattoo of her name ..................or maybe not.